Thursday, March 30, 2006
Pull Here, Push There
I've had something I've been working on for quite awhile now, the first two phases are over with and it makes me feel really manipulative that I'm treating this whole thing as a 'project' of some kind. Well, it can be from a certain perspective, but it's much more serious than that...
The whole process has felt like an experiment, that I can say... with extensive.. ok not extensive, but some research done and a bit of testing and a whole lot of creativity and split second decisions! Exciting, I know :P
Problem is, I think I'm getting bored with this little experiment... I've successfully reached two checkpoints and I'm leaving the rest to work itself out, let nature take its course. I've had enough planning for a lifetime, and the idea of using people as guinea pigs is wrong. Extremely fun, but wrong. I've had my fun, and I'm just waiting for life to slap me back in the face or hopefully the opposite (get to the final stage without having to lift a finger, which is so out of my realm of reality!)
Lesson of the day: Using people for your own entertainment pleasure can be really amusing but it's unacceptable, so next time you think of doing it, make sure they don't know who you are OR blame it on the weather.
N2S (Note 2 Self):- You need to get your lazy ass moving tomorrow by just doing one task in a time span of 5 hours, excluding a given 2 hour break... and yes, an hour does make a difference, waiting an hour to get the 'KHELG' is SAD!
The whole process has felt like an experiment, that I can say... with extensive.. ok not extensive, but some research done and a bit of testing and a whole lot of creativity and split second decisions! Exciting, I know :P
Problem is, I think I'm getting bored with this little experiment... I've successfully reached two checkpoints and I'm leaving the rest to work itself out, let nature take its course. I've had enough planning for a lifetime, and the idea of using people as guinea pigs is wrong. Extremely fun, but wrong. I've had my fun, and I'm just waiting for life to slap me back in the face or hopefully the opposite (get to the final stage without having to lift a finger, which is so out of my realm of reality!)
Lesson of the day: Using people for your own entertainment pleasure can be really amusing but it's unacceptable, so next time you think of doing it, make sure they don't know who you are OR blame it on the weather.
N2S (Note 2 Self):- You need to get your lazy ass moving tomorrow by just doing one task in a time span of 5 hours, excluding a given 2 hour break... and yes, an hour does make a difference, waiting an hour to get the 'KHELG' is SAD!
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Surrender
I believe, and so does Oprah, that if you really want something or did something that you want credit for... or basically anything that you've done and want some kind of reciprocity, you have to not dwell about it. You have to let it go, you have to surrender it all. If you want something so much you'd even die for while harboring an unhealthy obsession over, the safest thing to do is to let it go. If you do something, release it to the world. Don't hold it tight, don't make it seem much more important than it is... because nothing ever is. To be continued... because I'm on the phone ;P
"Do you wanna run away together?" I would say it was your best line. ever.
Too bad I felt for it... And I walked along, waiting for you to come along,
Take my tortured heart by the hand and write me off...
Do you know I cry? Do you know I die? Do you know I cry?
... and it's not the good kind.
"The Good Kind" - The Wreckers (You're welcome ;P)
Too bad I felt for it... And I walked along, waiting for you to come along,
Take my tortured heart by the hand and write me off...
Do you know I cry? Do you know I die? Do you know I cry?
... and it's not the good kind.
"The Good Kind" - The Wreckers (You're welcome ;P)
Thursday, March 23, 2006
I didn't mean to...
I don't mean to lie, but when I get forced to use a certain cream, take some pills when I'm sick or anything that I refuse to do, when asked about I say that I did... Just because I don't want to create any unwanted 'situations'! Anyway, so I'm told to use a cream, and then I say that I did, but I really didn't... they answer with things like "Yeah, I can see the results! It's working wonders". Or if I'm supposed to take medicine, my mom would say "Wayhech kan emsofer el7een ta3adal"... Not to insult mommy dearest or CATCH HER LYING TO MY FACE (because I did so a minute earlier) I would just say "Oh really?" and smirk...
What I can't understand for the LIFE of me... are they saying the TRUTH? Or just sending the message that what they say is whats right... It's like "told ya so"! Sure, I'd come up with my own conclusions that I have a great immune system that can recover my body in one day, or that I can clear my oily prone skin just by using sheer will power!
Most of the time I'm faced with the facts that 1) NO my face is not getting any better and 2) I am still coughing and weezing with tissues clogging my nasal tracts! Maybe it's my hard-headedness, or to put it honestly my forgetfulness! I simply just forget to take the pills, to use the creams... so, it's nothing personal, but I can't deny that i get amused to no end by their reactions.
-cough- -sniff-
What I can't understand for the LIFE of me... are they saying the TRUTH? Or just sending the message that what they say is whats right... It's like "told ya so"! Sure, I'd come up with my own conclusions that I have a great immune system that can recover my body in one day, or that I can clear my oily prone skin just by using sheer will power!
Most of the time I'm faced with the facts that 1) NO my face is not getting any better and 2) I am still coughing and weezing with tissues clogging my nasal tracts! Maybe it's my hard-headedness, or to put it honestly my forgetfulness! I simply just forget to take the pills, to use the creams... so, it's nothing personal, but I can't deny that i get amused to no end by their reactions.
-cough- -sniff-
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Do you really?
Is being a flirt a really bad thing? If I had the chance I would make it my favorite past time... and look in the mirror practicing batting my eyes and pouting my lips. No not quite, that's not the kind of 'superficial' flirting I'm talking about! Just about any living creature with eyes and lips can do that, and better than us humans too! Animals have tried every mating mechanism under the sun, and it seems to be working pret-ty good for them too...
Ok. This is not the direction I want this post to be going...
Back to the topic at hand! I think flirting is healthy, but not the "Yeah you're so hot" or the "I know you want me" type. Basically all the stuff that you would hear pop singers say in their songs is a big NO. (I'm thinking of Britney Spears and how she talks through her songs saying the most hilarious remarks while using her ultra sexy voice) Sell yourself girl!
I'm talking about 'entertain my ears, stimulate my mind' magic going on. My role model is Portia in The Merchant of Venice. That woman could TALK... She could grab your attention, twist your mind, leave your mouth gape in awe and still make you want more. I'm jealous :P
But I do too have a way with words, but I need a couple of seconds to think about what to say...Hmm make that ALOT of seconds. I wish I was faster upstairs :/ It's not that bad, considering that finding someone who will appreciate the effort and reciprocate the thought will be harder than thinking of a charming witty reply. Now that's sad.
Ok. This is not the direction I want this post to be going...
Back to the topic at hand! I think flirting is healthy, but not the "Yeah you're so hot" or the "I know you want me" type. Basically all the stuff that you would hear pop singers say in their songs is a big NO. (I'm thinking of Britney Spears and how she talks through her songs saying the most hilarious remarks while using her ultra sexy voice) Sell yourself girl!
I'm talking about 'entertain my ears, stimulate my mind' magic going on. My role model is Portia in The Merchant of Venice. That woman could TALK... She could grab your attention, twist your mind, leave your mouth gape in awe and still make you want more. I'm jealous :P
But I do too have a way with words, but I need a couple of seconds to think about what to say...Hmm make that ALOT of seconds. I wish I was faster upstairs :/ It's not that bad, considering that finding someone who will appreciate the effort and reciprocate the thought will be harder than thinking of a charming witty reply. Now that's sad.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Have a Break, Have a Flake Cake
I need a break! I seriously need a break where I can smother myself with chocolates, cookies, brownies, tubs of icecream, caramel popcorn and WATER to make the process easier on myself. And watch endless episodes of the family guy, futurama, and the simpsons (notice they're all animated shows so I won't compare myself to skinny actors while I increase my waistline to oblivion). OH, and most importantly, have two paramedics on the side just incase I slip into a coma from the sugar rush. And the paramedics should be really hot... and blind (so I can be comfortable knowing that they can't see how big a spoonful in my book is). Now THAT would be funny imagining, them trying to find a vein with their heightened sense of touch! It's turning into a scary movie now... that's why I needed a break in the first place, everything's becoming so complicated these days!
I don't have a sweet tooth, I have sweet TEETH. It's amazing how my teeth aren't deteriorating by now, I can't live without a dose of honey, chocolate, or condensed milk and many other sweet things. I think condensed milk is the best thing after... I'm trying to think of something but there isn't so... it's the best thing ever. period. It saves so much time, trying to get the right balance of sugar and milk with the tea is so challenging, it makes you (or rather just me) hate the process of drinking tea. Just use nestle condensed milk! It works wonders, and tastes heavenly.
I used to eat, drink or lick or whatever I used to do condensed milk right out of the pack.. gross?
I KNOW! ;D
I don't have a sweet tooth, I have sweet TEETH. It's amazing how my teeth aren't deteriorating by now, I can't live without a dose of honey, chocolate, or condensed milk and many other sweet things. I think condensed milk is the best thing after... I'm trying to think of something but there isn't so... it's the best thing ever. period. It saves so much time, trying to get the right balance of sugar and milk with the tea is so challenging, it makes you (or rather just me) hate the process of drinking tea. Just use nestle condensed milk! It works wonders, and tastes heavenly.
I used to eat, drink or lick or whatever I used to do condensed milk right out of the pack.. gross?
I KNOW! ;D
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Priceless
I seriously don't want to meet Mr. Right... I want to meet Mr. Right-NOW or is it the other way around? I want him to meet me? See since I could never, ever, EVA show that I am that desperate. I actually googled 'virtual boyfriend'... hey I was curious, there MUST be someone else in such a dire and sad state. (and there a few sites that actually make you create your own bf... I didn't go that far).
Why can't I just BUY one? I'm in my spending phase, and the more I spend the more I feel this void in my life! I truly believe that if I was with someone I wouldn't spend that much... I just need someone now to test that theory, and not for my other infinite and one reasons. There's not much my credit card can handle! and to top it all off, I have to suffer the consequences of satisfying myself by paying off my debt! It's a double edged sword, I have to pay the price (figuratively and literally!)
Oh, and random people keep popping up into my life... I always wonder how they remember me all of a sudden, what triggered that memory, what crazy thing did they hear or see that they associated with me. It's good to be remembered, it does bring back alot of memories, (which were neatly folded and tucked away a.k.a dealt with and forgotten) and I smile...No, not really, but I do sometimes. But anyway, my life has been a drag lately, I've been pushed backstage to watch the show go on while I recuperate, I hope I can jump right back in and continue the show soon! Now I know what it means to stand on the sidelines and watch life go by, it really is entertaining but I need to get involved again!
Why can't I just BUY one? I'm in my spending phase, and the more I spend the more I feel this void in my life! I truly believe that if I was with someone I wouldn't spend that much... I just need someone now to test that theory, and not for my other infinite and one reasons. There's not much my credit card can handle! and to top it all off, I have to suffer the consequences of satisfying myself by paying off my debt! It's a double edged sword, I have to pay the price (figuratively and literally!)
Oh, and random people keep popping up into my life... I always wonder how they remember me all of a sudden, what triggered that memory, what crazy thing did they hear or see that they associated with me. It's good to be remembered, it does bring back alot of memories, (which were neatly folded and tucked away a.k.a dealt with and forgotten) and I smile...No, not really, but I do sometimes. But anyway, my life has been a drag lately, I've been pushed backstage to watch the show go on while I recuperate, I hope I can jump right back in and continue the show soon! Now I know what it means to stand on the sidelines and watch life go by, it really is entertaining but I need to get involved again!
