Thursday, January 19, 2006
Suspicious
It's the whole cycle repeating itself, when you know that a person suddenly becomes extra friendly and then acts like you never had any history. I never knew he suffered from a short-memory span! I don't know if it's genuine, or if he's humoring me. Especially since this particular person has never "opened" up to me, I feel as if he has trust issues, with just me! He's natural with everyone else, I think it has something to do with not tarnishing the image I have of him. (Even though I know ever little gritty detail)
I don't know if it's a good thing or not, but he's starting to open up and becoming honest. Not the kind of honest I would like to hear, but just being honest and being himself. I've never seen that side of him, I'm not sure if it's a side I actually want to discover. He's the same person and all, but days of me wondering why he was so mysterious are loooooong gone!
Suddenly he starts calling again? I never would have thought of seeing his number. Things have changed, but I have no idea what made him so friendly, especially since we've had our rough phases.
It feels weird and I'm not used to it. He was always the guy in the background and then BAM, I'm your best friend!
Somethings going on...
I don't know if it's a good thing or not, but he's starting to open up and becoming honest. Not the kind of honest I would like to hear, but just being honest and being himself. I've never seen that side of him, I'm not sure if it's a side I actually want to discover. He's the same person and all, but days of me wondering why he was so mysterious are loooooong gone!
Suddenly he starts calling again? I never would have thought of seeing his number. Things have changed, but I have no idea what made him so friendly, especially since we've had our rough phases.
It feels weird and I'm not used to it. He was always the guy in the background and then BAM, I'm your best friend!
Somethings going on...
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Hold on
It all starts now. I need somewhere to begin documenting my unusual chronicles of living in this society, surrounded by these people.
There's a situation that is very frustrating. First of all, I'd like to begin by stating that I'm a very easy going person, I do not like to TALK, because talking involves alot of thinking and energy. I hear something, I comprehend it, and then move on. I hate the issue of 'discussing'. When I say something, it's probably worth listening to. And when I don't, which happens more than often, I have a good reason for not participating in conversations of any form.
There's this guy, let me just call him the.... stressor (a.k.a cause of stress) He's quite a handful, he keeps giving mixed signals which NO ONE likes to get, but I've been labeled a friend for more than two years now. Don't get me wrong, I'm perfectly happy with that status, but during more than one occasion he goes through an obsessive hinting phase. True, it does give my ego a boost, but it's also sad. I can't get this guy! I can get everyone, but he's still a pile of contradictions.
The stressor is a great guy, successful, kind, family oriented, ambitious, thoughtful, but has a bad habit of asking about every girl that catches his eye. He then hangs on false hope that once he contacts her she'll fall head over heels for him. He's really good looking and he knows it. After many failed attempts I tried consoling him and pleading him to stop acting so shallow, since he always looks for pretty girls. I tried knocking some sense into him, it worked for a couple of days. He contemplated his superficial ways but I haven't seen any progress lately.
Anyway, a couple of days ago stressor asked me about how many people know that I know him. How Kuwaiti of him. I told him that there were only five, and if it was up to me, I wouldn't see it important to grab a bull horn and tell the world that I know him. He was no Orlando Bloom. And it was his idea to 'say hi' to a couple of my friends.
He tells me that he doesn't want anyone else to know that I know him. Like it's my fault? He makes it sound as if I'm inferior. There's nothing between us. Why would I want to tell anyone, that's definitly not my style. I fail to see the big picture. And he's supposed to be open-minded. His reason was because he's going to get married.... IN AROUND TWO YEARS.
Being the stubborn and proud person I was, I decided that it was his loss. If he's eventually going to stop any friendship there was, it might as well be now! I am not going to initiate anything from now on. Some people need to think before they speak.
There's a situation that is very frustrating. First of all, I'd like to begin by stating that I'm a very easy going person, I do not like to TALK, because talking involves alot of thinking and energy. I hear something, I comprehend it, and then move on. I hate the issue of 'discussing'. When I say something, it's probably worth listening to. And when I don't, which happens more than often, I have a good reason for not participating in conversations of any form.
There's this guy, let me just call him the.... stressor (a.k.a cause of stress) He's quite a handful, he keeps giving mixed signals which NO ONE likes to get, but I've been labeled a friend for more than two years now. Don't get me wrong, I'm perfectly happy with that status, but during more than one occasion he goes through an obsessive hinting phase. True, it does give my ego a boost, but it's also sad. I can't get this guy! I can get everyone, but he's still a pile of contradictions.
The stressor is a great guy, successful, kind, family oriented, ambitious, thoughtful, but has a bad habit of asking about every girl that catches his eye. He then hangs on false hope that once he contacts her she'll fall head over heels for him. He's really good looking and he knows it. After many failed attempts I tried consoling him and pleading him to stop acting so shallow, since he always looks for pretty girls. I tried knocking some sense into him, it worked for a couple of days. He contemplated his superficial ways but I haven't seen any progress lately.
Anyway, a couple of days ago stressor asked me about how many people know that I know him. How Kuwaiti of him. I told him that there were only five, and if it was up to me, I wouldn't see it important to grab a bull horn and tell the world that I know him. He was no Orlando Bloom. And it was his idea to 'say hi' to a couple of my friends.
He tells me that he doesn't want anyone else to know that I know him. Like it's my fault? He makes it sound as if I'm inferior. There's nothing between us. Why would I want to tell anyone, that's definitly not my style. I fail to see the big picture. And he's supposed to be open-minded. His reason was because he's going to get married.... IN AROUND TWO YEARS.
Being the stubborn and proud person I was, I decided that it was his loss. If he's eventually going to stop any friendship there was, it might as well be now! I am not going to initiate anything from now on. Some people need to think before they speak.
